RIP Paul Walker – My Favorite Actor

November 30, 2013 was a tragic day for #fastfurious fans and family.

Paul Walker died in a car crash after doing some good for the world, to help out the Philpphines.
He was a great & loved man, and also a wonderful actor. He died at the age of 40 and left his beautiful daughter behind, Meadows Walker and also family and fans.

I'm writing personally as a big fan of Paul Walker. I loved his acting and I still can't believe he's gone, but I know he has become an angel and is watching down on us. He will be missed and never be forgotten. Rest in Peace you handsome man, Paul W. Walker.

Latepost–Happy Birthday my Beloved BFFs❤️

November 13, 2013❤️

Is the day my best friend turned 20th. Even though I couldn't be there by her side, but the thought of the greetings and giving something special from deep in my heart counts.
I cherish everything she's done for me and grateful to have met her and got to know her.
I know it's just a late post, but everything about her means everything to me. She's not only my best friend or a girl I met in high school, but she's a sister, like family.
Love you Ni Made Ayu Noviantari❤️
The bestest friend a girl can have ♡


Are you a Child of God? Which God?

For about the past year, I've been in a religion dilemma. My mom is Christian and my dad is Hinduism and by the way, my parents' are divorced.
I followed my dad's religion ever since I was young and it's in my blood but since I moved with my mom, I've been going to church. I go to church because I want to respect my mom's wishes that she wants to move on with her life, be reborn again in her new life with Christ and go to church. I go for the sake of her and nobody else. It's not that I don't believe in God, but I already have a God that I believe in. Nothing personal though, it's just my heart has been filled up by something and someone else.

The people in my mom's church have been asking me to join in all the church events and some of them keep saying I should be baptist or I should come in the path if Christ. I respect them for doing that, promoting their lifestyles and their relationship with God, but to me I feel nausea and heartache at the same time. They always say they're the children of God. Am I not too? I am but just in different beliefs. Isn't that the same?

Recently, I have been having problems with some people. They're so devoted to church. But in my mind, I always thought that people who went to church or even devoted their life for church would be holy and sinnless, always lived their life thru their bible, and never made mistakes — but I guess I was wrong. These people do make mistakes like I do and also bad-mouth about other people all the time and they call me a non-believer of God?

Maybe I'm not a believer of Christ but I know I am a believer of God. I know he is there watching me all the time. I maybe just go to church not to worship God, just to respect my mom and her friends but I also pray my own way. Just because my religion is different doesn't mean I don't have a religion.

I respect all religions and everybody should do the same. I respect the holidays but other people don't respect mine. I respect every part of every religion but they never respect mine. Each religion is the same, just it was created a different way and with a different name.

Which child of God are you? Do you know which one you belong to? Do you respect the other children of God? I know I do.


My Dreams – Are Not Just Dreams.

For the last two days, I've been having a hard time sleeping – not insomnia. It's not only because of this summer weather but I've been having bad dreams and it's been so hard for me to sleep.

Some people say that dreams are just something that you want to see or it's just a story in your mind  – like make believe; but for me, this one feels real; like it's something that God wants me to see and realize about what is happening in my life.

About my dream – 
I've been dreaming about a person that was trying to kill me. People that I knew were being killed just to protect me...
I would run from this person but I could never hide.
Once I would meet with that person and almost been killed; I would wake up and I would already be sweating and panting – like I just did a 10 mile jog.
I was so scared. I really thought that I would die soon. It felt so real. It felt like I was there. It felt so hard to forget it too.

Since I felt so unsecure, I tried google-ing meanings of dreams.
I found the meaning of being killed is:

"To dream that you have been killed suggests that your actions are disconnected from your emotions and conscience. The dream refers to drastic changes that you are trying to make. There is a characteristic that you want to get rid of or a habit that you want to end within yourself. Killing represents the killing off of the old parts and old habits. Alternatively, the dream represents feelings of being let down or betrayed by someone in your waking life. You are feeling overwhelmed, shocked and disappointed."

I was surprised when I saw this meaning of my dream. I was going thru a hard time in my life. I've been feeling lost since I moved from Bali. I had nobody that I can actually trust; even though I live with my own mom. It was depressing and sad. I also tried to get rid of the bad habits just for the people I cared about especially towards my mom.

I felt I was lost in a way before I had this dream and when after I had the dreams and I saw this meaning, it hit me.
It felt like a sign for me. Like God was telling me that I was just trying to get lost from everything that was and is surrounding me.
I hope this will be my last dream about being killed. I hope I can become a better person as my new age arrives soon.

Om Shanti, Shanti, Shanti Om.


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