My Dreams – Are Not Just Dreams.

For the last two days, I've been having a hard time sleeping – not insomnia. It's not only because of this summer weather but I've been having bad dreams and it's been so hard for me to sleep.

Some people say that dreams are just something that you want to see or it's just a story in your mind  – like make believe; but for me, this one feels real; like it's something that God wants me to see and realize about what is happening in my life.

About my dream – 
I've been dreaming about a person that was trying to kill me. People that I knew were being killed just to protect me...
I would run from this person but I could never hide.
Once I would meet with that person and almost been killed; I would wake up and I would already be sweating and panting – like I just did a 10 mile jog.
I was so scared. I really thought that I would die soon. It felt so real. It felt like I was there. It felt so hard to forget it too.

Since I felt so unsecure, I tried google-ing meanings of dreams.
I found the meaning of being killed is:

"To dream that you have been killed suggests that your actions are disconnected from your emotions and conscience. The dream refers to drastic changes that you are trying to make. There is a characteristic that you want to get rid of or a habit that you want to end within yourself. Killing represents the killing off of the old parts and old habits. Alternatively, the dream represents feelings of being let down or betrayed by someone in your waking life. You are feeling overwhelmed, shocked and disappointed."

I was surprised when I saw this meaning of my dream. I was going thru a hard time in my life. I've been feeling lost since I moved from Bali. I had nobody that I can actually trust; even though I live with my own mom. It was depressing and sad. I also tried to get rid of the bad habits just for the people I cared about especially towards my mom.

I felt I was lost in a way before I had this dream and when after I had the dreams and I saw this meaning, it hit me.
It felt like a sign for me. Like God was telling me that I was just trying to get lost from everything that was and is surrounding me.
I hope this will be my last dream about being killed. I hope I can become a better person as my new age arrives soon.

Om Shanti, Shanti, Shanti Om.