Cyber bullying, I've been there before.

I just watched the movie Cyberbully that was played by Emily Osment. It impressed me in a way. A lot of kids these days are being bullied on the internet especially on a social network. Like on Facebook, Myspace, or even Twitter. People that are the bullies may think it's funny being a cyber-bully, but it's wrong. I've been cyber-bullied before and I would tell you my story.


I remember like it was yesterday, Facebook was the hip social network and Twitter was just becoming popular in my school. I went to school at SMAK Santo Yoseph Denpasar Bali, Indonesia. I was in the 11th grade when I was being cyber-bullied from kids in the same grade as me.

I've been crazy about internet since I was in 9th grade when Friendster was the hip thing and then Facebook started I got more hyped about it. I love to update my status and upload my photos to Facebook. It was so cool to me. When the I was cyber-bullied by kids at my school in the 11th grade and my mom saw their words on my profile.

It was horrible! I was upset and nobody to talk to. Almost all the kids at my school hated me and picked on me on facebook. I just wanted to run away and delete my profile. They called me names, like fatty, coquettish (in indonesian), they would post that I look way different in my pictures than in real life, not even pretty, etc. But the funny part was the people I didn't even knew called me names and posted stuff on my facebook. And there were also kids that twittered me just mean things on Twitter. It's like my heart was made from stone. It's like they thought I wouldn't be heartbroken but I was and so disappointed too.

I always thought, what did I do to them? I don't even know them. Probably I see them at school but I don't know them that well. It always slipped in my mind what they said to me. It's my life not theirs and even the stuff they said before isn't even true. But at least I stood up for myself and never backed away from my problems. I just faced it day by day until the just started forgetting.

Typing right now about what they said about me is so sad and I wish it never happened to me but it did. I don't hate the people that called me names and tried to be tough in the cyberspace and behind my back and never had the guts to talk to me in person, but I wish they would understand if that happened to them. Something like that but worse.

We should stop cyberbullying to happen. It's wrong and the victims can be hurt because of the cyber-bullies words even though they thought it was just something fun to do. But to me, it's just wasting time and useless!

People said bad things (but I think I already erased & blocked the people that said bad things about me) but I fought back with these statuses.


Happy 20th Birthday CHIKA ❤

Finally, this day has come JULY 22, 2012. The day I turn 20 years old. I can't believe I'm turning 20 years old already! It's shocking and exciting to turn a year older today.
I just want to say all my thanks on my blog. Let's start! :D

Thank you ISHWW for this special day and I got to celebrate with special people. Thank you for giving me another year to live my diary of life. Thank you also for always looking out for me and always by my side. Astungkara my life will be guided by you through everything.

Thank you for my special superHERO, Mama Dearest. The person who gave birth to me, guided me, taught me, and loved me. Thank you for today. Even though you were sick, you still wanted to cook and buy a birthday cake for me. Thank you so much! <3

Thank you for my beloved SISTER & BFF, Caithlyn Dwi Agustina Astra, for the wishes and blessing. I wish you were here to celebrate with me but I'm thankful enough you remembered my birthday. Thank you little one :*

Thank you for my BFFs, Dita, Novi, Intan, April and Andry. Thank you for remembering my birthday. Even though we didn't celebrate it together but thank you for remembering. :') Miss you :*

Thank you my hubby, Girindra for the blessing and wishes wish there were more than that. A little disappointed but it's okay. Thank you though for remembering. :* miss you love you.

Thank you for FIBCNY. Thank you so much since the first day I arrived in NY you all were so welcoming and today it's my birthday I'm so grateful to celebrate with you guys. You made it so special and cheerful. It was a special day today for me getting to celebrate with each and every one of you. I'll cherish this day forever. Love you!

Thank you Youth of FIBCNY. Thank you for the card. It's lovely and I will put it up somewhere in my room. Thank you to Kelleh for the present, "Love Spell" (wish I can use it on someone. LOL). Thank you Uwak Barlian & Kak Juita for the card and gift card. That's very thoughtful of you. Thank you for Kak Tiff, Kak Amanda, Kak Fitha, Kak Tim, Kak Marc, Kak Lewi, Kelleh, Kak Theresia, Kak Beverly, Alex, Kak Tica, Kak Juita, Kak Melia, Kak Pierre, Kak Ima, Kak Johnny, and never forget Shirley for everything. You've all been so nice and welcoming to me. Hope we all can be close soon, give me a little bit more time. Thank you <3

Thank you for all my family in LA or BALI for the birthday blessings and thank you for the family in BALI that didn't remember at all, astungkara ISHWW will always bless you.

Thank you for all my friends for the birthday wishes and blessings. Through BBM, Facebook, Twitter, Instagram, and phone. Just so thankful today.

#birthdaywish : This year I become a better person, daughter, sister, girlfriend, and friend, my diet becomes a success, I get a job soon, get my accounting certificate soon too, and next year my own dad will remember his daughter's own birthday. Thank you Sang Hyang Widhi Wasa.

Thank you JULY 22, 2012 <3


​Happy 14th Birthday my baby sister, Caithlyn Dwi Agustina Astra ♥

​Happy 14th Birthday my Caithlyn Dwi Agustina Astra ({}) (˘⌣˘)ε˘`)

You're getting so big now! It just felt like yesterday mommy gave birth to you. :')

Hope you have an amazing birthday and a great time with your friends. At least I can see your smile on your birthday even though I'm not there to celebrate it.

Love always your big sister,

Chicha ❤


What's Your Korean Name?

I. Surname : Korean surname is the
last number in your year of birth.

0: Park
1: Kim
2: Shin
3: Choi
4: Song
5: Kang
6: Han
7: Lee
8: Sung
9: Jung

II. Middle name : is your month of birth.

1: Yong
2: Ji
3: Je
4: Hye
5: Dong
6: Sang
7: Ha
8: Hyo
9: Soo
10: Eun
11: Hyun
12: Rae

III. Name : is your date of birth.

1: Hwa
2: Woo
3: Joon
4: Hee
5: Kyo
6: Kyung
7: Wook
8: Jin
9: Jae
10: Hoon
11: Ra
12: Bin
13: Sun
14: Ri
15: Soo
16: Rim
17: Ah
18: Ae
19: Neul
20: Mun
21: In
22: Mi
23: Ki
24: Sang
25: Byung
26: Seok
27: Gun
28: Yoo
29: Sup
30: Won
31: Sub

The names might be good or weird .. but still let's have fun !!! ☺❤


​Happy Father's Day

JUNE 17, 2012 ♡

I just wanna wish Happy Father's Day to all the great dad's all over the world and in heaven. Thank you for being such great dad's even though you aren't the perfect dads' but you're the greatest!



​Happy 24 months Anniversary ❤

#JUNE2012 : I can't believe it's already been 2 years Girindra & I were dating! I thought it was just yesterday I started to date him. Wow.. Time flies so fast, huh?!

11.06.10 ❤
It the date we started to date ;;)
And 11 has always been my lucky number since we dated! (♥-̮♥)

#2yrsWISH : I hope we can still communicate and understand each other more than before, hope that we never fight, and especially have a longlasting relationship ♡

Now it's been 7 months apart from each other, I start thinking a long-distance relationship is good for the both of us. Even though it's hard, but we get to see the person we love from a different angle.

Astungkara we have an everlasting relationship and hope we are both just well together.



#chikaphotodesign ~ ME

My photo editing is getting more creative and better. Just loving it!

If you haven't seen my PAGE, check it out : www.facebook.com/Chika.photodesign
(Don't forget to LIKE it!)

FOLLOW my twitter : @chikaphotograph

Thankyou ~

#chikaphotodesign #photoofme #instamood #instagood #cute #narsis

Sabar buat kedua sahabatku :')

Tabahkan kedua sahabatku yang aku sayang dan kasihi, Novi & April. Hari ini mereka putus sama pacar masing-masing karena masalah. Moga-moga mereka bisa jalanin hari-hari mereka dengan biasa dan penuh keceriaan. Semangat iyaa ~
Mungkin dikemudian hari bakal mendapatkan yang lebih baik dan sangat baik daripada kemarin. Astungkara!

Maaf Chicha nggak bisa nemenin kalian berdua tapi kalau kalian mau cerita, Chicha ada kok buat kalian. I'm all ears for you ~

*Sabar iyaaa BFF Novi & April*

Love always,

Chicha :')

Hello, JUNE!

Hello hello.

JUNE is already here. So fast, huh?

Summer vacation is around the corner for the kids in school. So just have a great summer vacation where ever you're going. Happy JUNE! :D


Happy Mother's Day Mama ❤

This is my first Mother's Day with my mom again. It's been 9 years I haven't done anything special for her. I miss that so much!

Happy Mother's Day Mama ♥

I love you so much.
Even though Caithlyn and Ethan aren't here, they still love you too.

#MothersDaywish : We'll be together again, just the four of us as a family.

This is your special day too! Thank you for being my Mom :')

And for all the other Moms, Happy Mother's Day too ♥

May 13, 2012 ♥


Happy 23rd Monthsary "GiriChika" ❤

I ❤ today!
Happy 23rd monthsary baby Girindra Diksita :*

#MONTHsarywish : Longlast and everlasting love with I Pt Girindra Diksita, LDR is a sucsess, be a loving couple. 

Thank you for loving me and caring for me.

I love you so much and I hope we can be happy together for the rest of our lives.

Astungkara ~
11.05.12 ❤


Hello May :)

"Hello Hello May."

So how's the beginning of YOUR May?

My May has been good so far. Just the weather hasn't been to nice :p LOL

Every month we have a different wish. How bout yours?
Mine is #MAYwish : my diet is a success, everlasting friendship w/ BFFs, get to go to BALI soon, and chikaphotodesign will become a success!

Thank you for stopping by.
and don't forget to follow :)


Panggilan saat Pacaran ; "Mama Papa"

Buat semua orang yang pernah dan saat ini pacaran, pernah nggak sih panggil pacarnya dengan sebutan "Mama Papa" ?????

Pasti ada saatnya, kalian kira jamannya panggil pacar dengan sebutan gitu, tapi lama-kelamaan jaman mulai berubah juga dan sebutan "Mama Papa" muali jadi ALAY!

Nggak salah sih kalau kalian suka manggil satu sama lain dengan sebutan itu tapi pernah nggak mikir apa kata oramg lain? Emang sih di sekolah atau di rumah atau pun di tempat ibadah masing-masing mengajarkan kalian untuk jangan mendengarkan"Kata Orang" tapi masa kalian pede sih saling memanggil "Mama Papa" gtu? Apalagi kalau tercantum di social network yah, kayak Facebook atau Twitter.

"Gimana pendapat kalian-kalian yang pacaran?" 

"Panteskah pakai panggilan "Mama Papa" ?" 

Bukannya aku bertentangan gitu yah, cuma kadang lihat umur seseorang dan pakai panggilan itu nggak pantes. Emang pengen cepat married yah biar bisa saling memanggil "Mama Papa" ?
Terserah kalian sih yang pacaran pengen manggil "Mama Papa" atau "Mami Papi" mungkin mau di buat tambah keren pakai "Oma Opa", who knows?

Aku juga mikir dari pengalaman sendiri juga. Dulu pas masih SMP (belum tau apa-apa tentang pacaran), kira keren lah manggil pacarku dengan nama "Papa" sekarang semakin tua yah, mikir-mikir lagi manggil pacarku apa. Manggil "Papa" terlalu pengen cepat married.

Menurutku yah, anak-anak remaja walaupun orang yang dewasa seharusnya sewajarnya aja pacarannya. Mulai dengan nama panggilan. Nama panggilan yang pantes lah di pakai buat anak-anak remaja; sayang, yank, baby, ayank, honey, byby, hun, etc. Mungkin kalau kalian udah mau married, baru pakai "Mama Papa" atau "Mami Papi".

Comment di bawah menurut kalian tentang panggilan "Mama Papa" !


YOU ♥ (Versi Bahasa Indo)

Hari ini saya sudah melihat foto yang saya ambil dengan kalian dan telah dipostingdi Facebook. Ini membuat saya mulai berpikir tentang kalian dan betapa aku rindunongkrong dengan Anda! Hal ini juga membuat saya menangis.

Sebelum aku bertemu denganmu dan Facebook bahkan belum diciptakan (Friendster hip ketika saya masih di SMP), saya selalu berpikir itu adalah sebuah fase dalam hidup saya untuk menjadi dan tinggal di BALI. Terutama, aku orang yang pemalu. 

Tapi aku rasa, Ida Sang Hyang Widhi memberi saya kesempatanuntuk hidup dan berada di BALI karena suatu alasan, untuk memenuhi ANDA.Saya sepertinya tidak pernah menyesal bertemu ANDA sebelum atau bahkan sekarang. Meskipun kami memiliki beberapa perkelahian, kesalahpahaman, bahagia dan saat-saat bahkan sedih bersama. Tapi itulah yang begitu istimewa tentang hubungan kami. Kenangan kami di masa lalu patut liar dan tak terlupakan. 

Aku mencintai kalian dari saat kami mulai persahabatan kami. Melalui suka dan duka kita bisa bersama sampai tua. Jadi anak-anak kita dapat memiliki persahabatanseperti kita. 
Terima kasih telah membuat hidup saya jadi berwarna-warni dan memilikikenangan tak terlupakan. 
Aku tidak akan pernah menyesal telah Anda sisiku ~



Dieting :3

Dieting. It's such a hard thing to do but when you need it, you just have to do it.

I've lost 10kg in about 2months and my weight still is high :(
I still need to lose 20-30 kg.
But each time I lose a couple kilograms, I always seem to get them back.

I've been cutting down on rice and eating ALOT of salad and fruits. Been running in the park and exercising at home too.
So I hope I can do this!

#2012wish : My weight can be 55kg! Even though my ideal weight is 65kg but it's okay to lose another 10kg. That's all I want :') fighting!!!

Missing you, Taa Itaa Dieta (ʃ˘̩̩̩.˘̩ƪ)

Udah 5 bulan Chika pindah dari Bali. Pisah dari BFFku tersayang, tercinta, and terdekat, Dita.

Kadang ngerasaa kangen bgt! Kadang ngerasa sepi tanpa Dita. Biasanya ada aja yg ngajak jalan, beli rujak atau jaga warungnya. #kangen

Skrng Chika udah nggak di Bali, kita jarang jugaa ngobrol. Jarang komunikasi. Jadi tambah kangen. Edit photo Dita, cuma bisa ngilangin rasa kangen Chika ke Dita. Ke semua BFFs juga gitu. Edit photo BFFs buat ngilangin kesepianku & rasa kangenku (ʃ˘̩̩̩.˘̩ƪ)

Seberapa jauhnya Chika pergi, Dita bakal tetep sahabat Chika. Walaupun nggak ketemu and nggak bisa hangout kayak dulu, Chika pengen Dita selalu ada buat Chika. Sebaliknya Chika ada buat Dita.

Chika harap Dita nggak pernah lupa persahabatan kita. ❤

Missing you Taa Itaa Dieta (T . T)


Today I've been looking at photos that I took with you guys and was posted on Facebook. It got me start thinking about you guys and how much I miss hanging out with you! It also made me cry.

Before I met you and even Facebook was even invented (Friendster was hip when I was in junior high), I always thought it was a phase in my life to be and live in BALI. Especially, I'm a shy person. But I guess, Ida Sang Hyang Widhi gave me a chance to live and to be in BALI for a reason, to meet YOU.

I never seem to regret meeting YOU before or even now. Even though we had some fights, misunderstanding, happy and even sad moments together. But that's what's so special about our relationship. Our memories in the past are worth wild and so unforgettable.

I love you guys from the moment we started our friendship. Through thick and thin we'll be together until old. So our kids can have a friendship like us.

Thank you for making my life so colorful and having unforgettable memories.
I'll never regret having you by my side ~

♥ Chicha

Happy Birthday Aprilia Dhewy ❤

18.04.12 is one of my BFFs Birthday ~
Happy birthday :*
loveyou lotsss ..


The Start of April ♥

Hi there. Sorry I just had time to write. My life has been so crazy! Just starting this new month is my new page in my book of life. It has it's ups and downs. So this is the starting of April ☺

On April 1, 2012 was April Fools Day. My sister, Caithlyn whatsapp me at 6 o' clock in the morning and whatsapp me just trying to scare me that I did something wrong to her and it DID! When I woke up, I just remembered it was April Fools so I knew I was being joked around with. It was hilarious!!!!!
On that same day, I was thinking of doing it to my BFFs, Dita. I DM her on twitter saying she was a bad BFF for saying my secret and stuff. She just read it the next day over there and was suprised, I guess?! LOL! She said she almost cried?!!! It was so hilarious and touching :3

On April 9, 2012 Tante Surami, Om Cornellius and Grace left New York to go home to Indonesia for 2 months. They'll be back on June. Have fun in Indo you guys ~

On April 11, 2012 was my 1 year and 10 month Anniversary with my boyfriend, Girindra. Longlast to us!!!!!! ❤

Today, which is April 14, 2012; my mom's church had a BBQ at the pastor house (Pastori). It was fun!

Just a diary about my days. So not important but important to me ~ *kisskiss* :*


Good Morning April ~ 01.04.2012

Happy April Fools Day everyone and Happy April :)

It's already April, wow. Time files so fast huh?

Just want to wish everyone here, hopefully in April you all are healthy, happy and successful in anything in life!

My own #Aprilwish :

  1. Longlast with my boyfriend, Girindra Diksita.
  2. Longlast friendship with my BFFs Dita, Nouvhi, Intan, April and Andry.
  3. Get a great job so I can help my mom.
  4. Be a professional photographer.
  5. Can bring my lil' sis and bro here to AMERICA :)
That's my #Aprilwish.

So, Happy April everyone. Enjoy your weekend and for those of you on spring break, have a great spring break!

Bye ~


Kelly Clarkson - STRONGER Lyrics ~

You know the bed feels warmer,
Sleeping here alone,
You know I dream in color,
And do the things I want. 
You think you got the best of me 
Think you had the last laugh
Bet you think that everything good is gone.
Think you left me broken down
Think that i'd come running back
Baby you don't know me, cause you're dead wrong. 
What doesn't kill you makes you stronger
Stand a little taller
Doesn't mean I'm lonely when I'm alone.
What doesn't kill you makes a fighter
Footsteps even lighter
Doesn't mean i'm over cause you're gone
What doesn't kill you makes you stronger, stronger
Just me myself and i
What doesn't kill you makes you stronger, 
Stand a little taller
Doesn't mean i'm lonely when i'm alone
You heard that I was starting over with someone new,
They told you I was moving on, over you, 
You didn't think that I'd come back, i'd come back swinging 
You try to break me but you see

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger 
stand a little taller 
doesn't mean I'm lonely when I'm alone. 
What doesn't kill you makes a fighter
Footsteps even lighter
Doesn't mean I'm over cause your gone. 
what doesn't kill you makes you stronger, stronger
Just me, myself and I 
What doesn't kill you makes you stronger
Stand a little taller Doesn't mean I'm lonely when I'm alone
Thanks to you I got a new thing started
Thanks to you I'm not the broken hearted
Thanks to you I'm finally thinking 'bout me 
You know in the end the day I left was just my beginning..... in the end...
What doesn't kill you makes you stronger
Stand a little taller
Doesn't mean I'm lonely when I'm alone
What doesn't kill you makes a fighter
Footsteps even lighter
Doesn't mean I'm over cause you're gone. 
What doesn't kill you makes you stronger, stronger
Just me, Myself and I 
What doesn't kill you makes you stronger
Stand a little taller 
Doesn't mean I'm lonely when I'm alone.
I'm not alone


Dearest My Beloved BFFs

Dear BFFs,

I just wanted to write to you guys. I hope you'll read it. Even though not today but someday. I wrote this in English, but you can translate it if you get to read this and don't understand. I just want to say sorry to each and every one of you if I did something wrong or have hurt you in the past.

  • To Dita :
I just want to say sorry if I've ever hurt your feelings and haven't been a great sister or best friend to you. I hope that you will forgive me for all the bad things I've done or probably words that I said that made you fell sad and disappointed in me. I care about you as my best friend and little sister. I think about you and what is best for you as well. I hope you understand my feelings towards you and I hope our friendship will be to the end of our life together. Love you ~

  • To Nouvhi :
I just want to apologize for everything I've done to hurt you or even made you feel disappointed. Even though we misunderstand each other sometimes and get in to little fights, but we can never be angry at each other because we care to much about each other. I hope our friendship will last forever. Until our children can be best friends like us. Love you ~

  • To Intan :
I'm sorry Intan, if I had hurt your feelings. I made you hate me and being angry at me. Fighting is always a cure to become good friends, that's what I've heard. I miss talking to you and joking around with you. Even though you don't like me or even treat me as your BFFs anymore, that's okay. I still care for you. I hope we can put our differences behind us and start a new page in our book of friendship. I still want us to be friends and I hate fighting and talking about each other behind each others back. I hope you will still forgive me. Friends Forever. Love you ~

  • To April :
Even though I haven't met you in person, but I know you'll be my BFFs too. We get along so well even though it's only on facebook and twitter. But it feels like I knew you my whole life. I also want to say sorry if I ever hurt your feelings with my words. I hope we can be friends until we get old. Love you ~

Thank you BFFs for wanting to be my BFFs and want to get to know me. I hope we can all forgive each other for what we did in the past and make a new future ahead of us for our friendship. I forgive you all even though you hurt me on purpose or not. But I hope one day, we can understand our differences and become friends until we get old.
I'm sorry again if I've hurt your feelings in the past and for in the future. I just want to be honest, deep in my heart that I'm so sorry. I hope you'll forgive me.

Dearest Daddy

Dear Daddy,

It's been 4 months already I've lived with mama and it's been 4 months I haven't seen or spoke to you. Are you doing well? Are you happy I'm not there anymore? You seem not to care for me even though I live with mama. You never ask me how am I? As usual. Are you taking good care of my sister and brother? Are you as busy as always?

*If you are reading this*

Hope you are well. Be healthy and be a good dad to Caithlyn and Ethan. Be there for them if though you're busy. Make some time for your real family. Especially Caithlyn is going to graduate from Junior High next year. So please give her your support as a dad, not like you did to me. And Ethan, he's still little. He still needs love from you. Even though you give them money, they'll still wish you were there for them especially in important times. You still have time daddy to change. It's never too late to learn from your mistakes. That's what you always said to me. So you still have a chance to be a good dad to Caithlyn and Ethan, even though you weren't as great to me.

I've grown up, and starting my future with or without you. I hope I get your blessing through each path and step I make. Even though they're right and wrong. Thank you for taking care of me for the past 19 years of my life. Thank you even though you weren't a great dad to me but I still appreciate you as my dad.

Thank you daddy ~
I love you always and forever ~

Love always your daughter,

Jessica Ekarahayu Astra


Dearest Y.O.U

Dearest ex-BFF,

I always thought of you as my best friend. Not just a classmate, but a friend that I can relay on. Someone that I can trust with my secrets, a friend that I can talk to not being shy, just being myself, and a friend until we get old. But I guess I was wrong about you. You weren't my best friend at all. You really were good acting as my best friend but now I know who you really are.

*If you are reading this*

To be honest, I blocked you from my Facebook is not that I can't face you. It's not that I'm scared of you, it's because I'm tired of dealing with you. I'm tired reading your status that's for me (even though they're not for me, but from those words they're FOR me). It's not that NOW I'm NOT in BALI that I'm brave enough to talk about you behind your back or in the computer world, even though I still lived in BALI, I would still respect you as my BEST FRIEND! However you don't think that way. You think 100% differently than me. You get angry before finding the solution to solve both our differences and problems. Even though you act different in front and in the back of me, I treat you EQUALLY as my BEST FRIEND! Even though they're some things I don't like about you, but I try to like them. I try me best to be patience with you.

I really want to talk to you, but don't know what and how to talk to you. I even say happy birthday to you to be a good friend that I remembered your birthday, you make a status about me. Did you ever think that I care about you? Did you ever think that I could get hurt to by your words? Just to be honest with you, I care about you. You're my best friend. Best friends can get in fights. Best friends can forgive. Why can't you forgive me? I forgave you when you hurted me. I gave you so many chances. I opened my heart for you because I thought you were always someone special in my heart, you were always going to be there in my life. I never thought that our friendship would end just because of a stupid status.

If I ever hurted you in the past, forgive me. If you never want to meet me, write me, or even be friends with me, it's okay. I forgive you for every mistake you made to me. I hope you can change yourself for the better. Be a better person than before. 난 당신을 사랑한다 ex-BFF.

I've held this pain too long. I want to let it out now. Even though you'll never read this letter. But at least I wrote how I felt. One day, you'll read this and I hope you understand how I felt. Thank you for being my friend in the past and the best for you in the future. Hope to see you again :)

Love always,

Chicha Diksita


My Birthday Present to My BFF, Taa Itaa Dieta ❤

One of my BFFs, Taa Itaa Dieta had her 18th birthday on March, 5 2012 ♥

I wasn't there for her birthday, but at least I thought of her. I hope she can do the same for me on my birthday :) the thought that matters...

Hari Raya NYEPI (Day of Silence)

Nyepi is a Balinese "Day of Silence" that is commemorated every Isakawarsa (Saka new year) according to Bali's calendar (in 2012, it will be on March 23rd). It is a day of silence, fasting, and meditation. The day following Nyepi is also celebrated as New year.
Observed from 6 a.m. until 6 a.m. the next morning, Nyepi is a day reserved for self-reflection and as such, anything that might interfere with that purpose is restricted. The main restrictions are: no lighting fires (and lights must be kept low); no working; no entertainment or pleasure; no traveling; and for some, no talking or eating at all. The effect of these prohibitions is that Bali’s usually bustling streets and roads are empty, there is little or no noise from TVs and radios, and few signs of activity are seen even inside homes. The only people to be seen outdoors are the Pecalang, traditional security men who patrol the streets to ensure the prohibitions are being followed.
Although Nyepi is primarily a Hindu holiday, non-Hindu residents of Bali observe the day of silence as well, out of respect for their fellow citizens. Even tourists are not exempt; although free to do as they wish inside their hotels, no one is allowed onto the beaches or streets, and the only airport in Bali remains closed for the entire day. The only exceptions granted are for emergency vehicles carrying those with life-threatening conditions and women about to give birth.
On the day after Nyepi, known as Ngembak Geni, social activity picks up again quickly, as families and friends gather to ask forgiveness from one another, and to perform certain religious rituals together.


First, The Melasti Ritual is performed at the 3-4 previous day. It is dedicated to Sanghyang Widhi Wasa and is performed at the beach to respect them as the owner of The Land and Sea. The ritual performed in Pura (Balinese temple) near the sea (Pura Segara) and meant to purify Arca, Pratima, and Pralingga (sacred objects) belongs to several temples, also to acquire sacred water from the sea.
Second, The Bhuta Yajna Ritual is performed in order to vanquish the negative elements and create balance with God, Mankind, and Nature. The ritual also meant to appease Batara Kala by Pecaruan offering. Devout Hindu Balinese villages usually make ogoh-ogoh, demonic statues made of bamboo and paper symbolizing negative elements or malevolent spirits. After the ogoh-ogoh have been paraded around the village, the Ngrupuk ritual takes place, which involves burning the ogoh-ogoh.
Third, The Nyepi Rituals is performed with the following conditions:
Amati Geni: No fire/light, including no electricity
Amati Karya: No working
Amati Lelunganan: No travelling
Amati Lelanguan: Fasting and no revelry/self-entertainment
Fourth, The Yoga/Brata Ritual starts at 6:00 AM and continues to 6:00 AM the next day.
Fifth, The Ngembak Agni/Labuh Brata Ritual is performed for all Hindus to forgive each other and to welcome the new days to come.
Sixth and finally, The Dharma Shanti Rituals is performed as the Nyepi Day or "Day of Silence."
Nyepi/Silent Day in 2009 will be on 26 March 2009 Nyepi/Silent Day in 2010 will be on 16 March 2010 Nyepi/Silent Day in 2011 will be on 05 March 2011 Nyepi/Silent Day in 2012 will be on 23 March 2012


SHINee ❤

I'm such a KPOP fan especially when it comes to SHINee! ❤ SHINee.
My favorite SHINee is Leader Onew and Almighty Key. 
But they're all great especially they are really nice and funny.
Even though I haven't met them, but I could tell from all there shows. :)
Saranghae SHINee 
Fighting! Keep making music and making your fans happy!

SHINee on Hello Baby
SHINee Calender 

SHINee w/ Yoogeun (Hello Baby)
SHINee w/ Yoogeun (Hello Baby)

SHINee Members


Trying to Adapt to My New Life with mama

It's already been 3 months I've lived back in America especially in New York. It's so hard for me to adapt to New York. How to live in NYC?! Anyone have advice? And it's also hard for me because it's been so long I haven't lived with my mom and now finally I'm living with her. ❤

New York it's just so crowded and I'm trying to hard to do everything right so my mom would be happy. But she's never been happy since I came. I just made it worse. I'm trying my best to make her proud too.

I know it's hard for my mom when she's working and I'm home alone. She always thinks and worries about me and I'm grateful but sometimes I just can't act thankful for her being there for me. I always seemed to act ungrateful to her when she tells me something. I always yell at her even though I wasn't going to. I'm just trying to get use to everything. Especially the love and careness of my own mom. Even though I grew up with my dad and I'm already use to not being cared at all but I seem to have that same old attitude when I'm with my mom and I don't know how to get rid of it.

Mama, if you are reading this. I'm sorry I can't be your perfect daughter that can do everything and always make you proud. Give me time to adapt and change just for you. I'm trying my best but I also know it's not good enough. But I will learn, will change and will adapt. I will adapt and change everything about me just for you :')

I'm sorry I also make you stressed and cry. I just want to make things right now.
I love you mama :')
Always and forever ❤


Good Morning MARCH :)

Today is official MARCH in NY :)
1.03.12, what a beautiful date ...

Woke up in the morning, it wasn't actually the best weather today. It was gloomy and about to rain. But I love it when we start a new month :)

My #MARCHwish : get a camera SLR (hopefully), diet is a success, get the school that my mom wants me to get, get a great job, and can come home to BALI to see my beloved siblings, boyplend and BFFs.

Lets start a brand new month with a smile and keep moving forward :)

Happy March!
Happy Thursday!
And happy the 1st :)

March please be nice to me :)
love ya lotsss !!


Weekend at Washington DC :)

Last weekend, my mom and I went to DC for my beloved cousin, Kania's bday. Since my mom had a day off from her work on Thursday afternoon, we left on Thursday afternoon around 3.30 PM. We were gonna use Bolt Bus but since the next one was 6.30, we didn't wanna wait and left with a chinese bus called Eastern Bus. It was one bumpy ride and you guys just don't wanna know about it!! It was so crazy it felt like the bus was gonna fall.

So, we got there at 8 o'clock and my aunt, Tante Oni, picked us up right after she was done from work. We at Sakana (Japanese Resto), it was the best! Especially the sushi, since I LOVE SUSHI!! LOL. After that, we went to Tante Oni's home and we say Kania, Katiya and Alex. It was great to see them again!

The next day, we planned to go to the Fish Market. My mom was gonna make her famous CRAB for dinner. So, Kania, my mom and I went there and bought like 2 dozen of alive crab. So one the way home we bought ingredients to make the crab, salad and es campur. When we got home, we helped my mom cooking and stuff. Kania at 4'o clock had to leave for a fashion show rehearsal at her school so it just was my mom and me doing the rest of the cooking. When we finally finished, I took a shower and got ready.

That night, Tante Oni's friends from work came to have dinner with us. They were enjoying the crab my made. Of course they were enjoying it! It was the best!! :)

The next day, we woke up very early coz Kania and Alex had swimming lessons. So we all went to take them and we looked around there. From there we went to the Botanical Garden. It was a little like the Manggrove Forest at Bali. It was fun!! Here are some pictures we took. :)

Mama & Katiya
Katiya, Alex, Mama and Kania

Me, Mama, and Kania


Happy Birthday My Beloved, Kania Maniasa ❤

February 22, 2012 :)

Your special day!
Happy Birthday !!!

Love you lots,

Chika :*

My Long-Distance Relationship ❤

November 29, 2011 

I started my LDR with my BF, Indra. Now, it's going to be 3 months being apart from him. I know it's not a big deal to other people, but it's a BIG DEAL to me.

June 11, 2010 - November 29, 2011

Since I met him, we see each other EVERYDAY. He would come to my house at night. When we were still in school, he would pick me up from school (we went to different schools) and we would sit in front of the patio at my house. Months past and we started our Senior Exams (UN), and nothing has changed between us. We always have time to see each other. Even it was after school or in the evening. That time I always came to his house. Until we graduate from high school, we spent our time together from morning through evening. It was sweet though just thinking about it. I've never had a boyfriend like him, so it's kinda of new for me! But, I love him A LOT!!!!! ❤

February 20, 2012

We fought a lot about our relationship. Said bad things that we didn't mean and regret afterwards. The thing I could do at that moment was cry until I fell asleep. In my dreams, I was thinking about my relationship and my purpose. I tried my very best to make everybody happy. From my mom, my siblings, my friends and especially my boyfriend. But I guess everything I did was always wrong. Indra couldn't understand how I felt once he said bad things. I felt so down and upset with him. He was like my dad.

February 21, 2012

Indra apologize for what he said yesterday night in whatsapp. He regreted what he said to me. I accepted his apology not fully trusted him. I tried to put his words what he said to me yesterday aside. I tried to just be normal the way I use to be with him. 

February 22, 2012

I can't sleep so I'm writing at this hour. I've been thinking about LDR with Indra. Is it worth waiting for him or is he just gonna hurt me more. I love him, but he never tries to understand me. All he does is get mad at me. LDR? Is he even ready for a relationship like this? He acts if he is still a little kid. I just don't want to lose him because of all this fighting. I try my best to stay together in this relationship. No matter how hard it is, but I'm willing to try and wait because I love him. #LDR


My Wish List ❤

Wajar nggak semua org punya impian? Iyaa jelas dong! :)
Aku bikin list, namanya Wish List.

My Wish List :

1. Nikah dengan pacarku yg sekarang, I Pt Girindra Diksita :*

2. Kuliah nursing & graphic design.

3. Dapat kerja yg bagus.

4. Tinggal bersama mama & adik" di US.

5. BFFs sampe tua (Dita, Nouvhi, April, Andry, Indra).

6. Banggain mama.

7. Bisa ketemu Selena Gomez, Onew SHINee, and Taylor Lautner.

8. Langsing!

9. Pulang ke Bali.

10. Beli camera SLR.

Itu Wish Listku. Harap suatu saat nanti, aku bisa lakuin semua yg ada di Wish Listku! :)

Makna SAHABAT :)

Semua orang di dunia ini, pasti nyari yg namanya "SAHABAT" atau aku bilang "BFFs" or "Best Friends Forever."

Bagi aku yah, BFFs adalah orang yg paling bisa diandelin dlm hidup kita. Saat suka maupun duka, BFFs selalu ada disamping kita. Mau satu group atau cuma seorang aja, kita bisa manggil BFFs. Tapi nggak semua org kita bisa panggil BFFs atau SAHABAT.

Apa sih makna SAHABAT bagimu?

Bagi aku, SAHABAT atau BFFs adalah org yg mau terima kamu apa adanya, mau bergaul walaupun banyak perbedaan, selalu mendampingi dan bertuker cerita. Pokoknya, SAHABAT bisa laah diandelkan saat kita butuh. SAHABAT sama kayak keluarga bagiku. SAHABATku adalah keluargaku, keluargaku adalah SAHABATku, dan pacarku adalah SAHABATku. Jadi siapa ajjah sih bisa jadi SAHABAT, tapi kita juga harus bener" pinter milih siapa SAHABAT SEJATI kita.

Belum tentu temenan bisa jadi SAHABAT, belum tentu kita udah SAHABATan bisa jadi SAHABAT SEJATI. Itu ada proses dlm bersosialisasi apalagi bagi kaum remaja.

Ada sii A bilang ke B "Oya, kita kan SAHABATan." Padahal sii A dibelakangnya B ngomongin yg jelek". Fitnah yg macem". Kan berarti A bukan SAHABAT SEJATI cuma SAHABAT"an.

Kita sebagai SAHABAT seharusnya bisa menjaga perasaan satu sama lain, bukan menjelekan. Kita juga harus bisa membedakan org yg mau SAHABATan ama kita karena material atau karena diri kita sendiri. Biasanya ada org yg bilang mereka SAHABATan tapi cuma mau manfaatin karena kaya atau keren. Padahal SAHABAT SEJATI itu sendiri maknanya bukan kayak gtu.

Jadi hati" ajjah kl bertemen, berSAHABAT, dsb. :)


Happy Valentine's Day ❤

Today is February 14, 2012. 
Valentine's Day. 

The day we celebrate "LOVE" with people that are special to us. It could be best friends, parents, siblings, teachers, and even our girlfriend/boyfriend. 

How do you celebrate Valentine's Day with your love one?

I just wanna say Happy Valentine's Day to everybody! Don't just love your loved ones only on Valentine's Day but you should love them EVERYDAY! ❤


Friendship Astrology :)

I searched the web for our friendship astro about my BFFs and me and this is what came out!

Chika & Dita (Cancer & Pisces)

  • English

This is a friendship that affords great joy and happiness to you both. You love Pisces's movie collection, while they adore your cooking. You admire the Fish's humanitarian principles, while they admire your financial sense. You delight in Pisces's imagination, while they relish your sense of humor. This mutual appreciation society is only bolstered by your many common interests, including swimming, dream interpretation and poetry. Are there any sore spots between you? Well, yes. Pisces's flakiness can hurt your feelings, especially when your pal forgets an appointment, anniversary, or birthday. On the other hand, the Fish sometimes feels that your mothering borders on smothering. If you can manage to forgive each other's weaknesses, you'll form a strong bond that will last for a lifetime.

  • Indonesian

Ini adalah persahabatan yang memberi sukacita dan kebahagiaan bagi Anda berdua. Anda mencintai koleksi film Pisces, sementara mereka memujamemasak Anda. Anda mengagumi prinsip-prinsip kemanusiaan Ikan, sementaramereka kagumi akal keuangan Anda. Anda menikmati imajinasi Pisces, sementara mereka menikmati rasa humor. Masyarakat yang saling menghargaihanya didukung oleh banyak kepentingan Anda umum, termasuk interpretasirenang, mimpi dan puisi. Apakah ada titik-titik antara Anda sakit? Well, yaKepipihan Pisces dapat menyakiti perasaan Anda, terutama bila teman anda lupajanji, ulang tahun, atau ulang tahun. Di sisi lain, Ikan kadang-kadang merasa bahwa Anda ibu berbatasan dibekap. Jika Anda dapat mengatur untukmengampuni kelemahan masing-masing, Anda akan membentuk ikatan yang kuat yang akan berlangsung selama seumur hidup.

Chika & Nouvhi (Cancer & Scorpio)

  • English

Scorpio makes a fulfilling and enjoyable friend for you, Cancer. As Water signs, the two of you are very deep people and like to get beneath the surface of everything from art to politics to philosophy. You'll never engage in casual chitchat with Scorpio. You love this sign's possessiveness, because it makes you feel wanted and needed. Similarly, Scorpio appreciates your nurturing since they often deprive themselves of the things they need most, like good food, comfortable furniture and handy appliances. Sure, this friend is capable of making stinging comments that make you draw back into your shell. On the other hand, your gestures of affection can make reserved Scorpio squirm with embarrassment. For the most part, though, the two of you ignore each other's weak points in the interests of preserving your friendship. Your many common interests may include scuba diving, watching films and trading detective novels.
  • Indonesian

Scorpio menjadi teman yang memuaskan dan menyenangkan bagi Anda, Cancer. Sebagai tanda-tanda Air, Anda berdua adalah orang-orang sangat dalam dan ingin mendapatkan di bawah permukaan mulai dari seni hingga politikfilsafat. Anda tidak akan pernah terlibat dalam obrolan santai dengan Scorpio. Anda mencintai posesif tanda ini, karena itu membuat Anda merasa diinginkandan dibutuhkan. Demikian pula, Scorpio menghargai pengasuhan Anda karenamereka sering menghilangkan diri dari hal-hal yang paling mereka butuhkan, seperti makanan yang baik, nyaman furnitur dan peralatan berguna. Tentu, teman ini mampu membuat komentar menyengat yang membuat Anda menarik kembali ke shell anda. Di sisi lain, gerakan kasih sayang Anda dapat membuat reservedScorpio menggeliat karena malu. Untuk sebagian besar, meskipun, Anda berduamengabaikan titik lemah masing-masing untuk kepentingan melestarikanpersahabatan Anda. Banyak kepentingan umum Anda mungkin termasuk scuba diving, menonton film dan novel detektif perdagangan.

Chika & Intan (Cancer & Sagittarius)
  • English

You want a friend who will stick by you through good times and bad, while Sagittarius can't stay in one place for two minutes at a time. You love familiar environments, while the Archer prefers venturing into unknown territory. You're careful with money, whereas Sag lets it slip through their fingers. Is there any hope for this friendship? Yes, if you treat each other's differences as strengths. For instance, your pal's zest for life can get you to try activities that you'd never otherwise experience. In the same vein, your tender nurturing can help the Archer develop their soft side. Yes, this friend can drive you crazy with their perpetual tardiness, while your moodiness can dampen Sagittarius's sunny disposition. Still, you can learn a great deal from one another, especially engaging in activities like horseback riding, chess and dancing.
  • Indonesian
Anda ingin seorang teman yang akan menempel oleh Anda melalui masa-masabaik dan buruk, sedangkan Sagitarius tidak bisa tinggal di satu tempat selama dua menit pada suatu waktu. Anda mencintai lingkungan akrab, sedangkan Archer lebih suka bertualang ke wilayah yang tidak dikenal. Kau hati-hati dengan uang, sedangkan Sag memungkinkan itu tergelincir melalui jari-jari mereka. Apakah ada harapan bagi persahabatan ini? Ya, jika Anda memperlakukanperbedaan masing-masing sebagai kekuatan. Misalnya, semangat teman anda untuk bisa mendapatkan kehidupan Anda untuk mencoba kegiatan yang Andatidak pernah mengalami sebaliknya. Dalam nada yang sama, memelihara lembut Anda dapat membantu Archer mengembangkan sisi lembut mereka. Ya, teman ini dapat membuat Anda gila dengan keterlambatan abadi mereka, sementarakemurungan Anda dapat meredam disposisi cerah Sagitarius ini. Namun, Anda dapat belajar banyak dari satu sama lain, khususnya terlibat dalam kegiatan seperti menunggang kuda, catur kuda dan menari.

Chika & Rosa (Cancer & Aries)
  • English
Teaming up with an Aries can be something of a challenge for you, Cancer. Aries acts first and thinks afterward, while you carefully contemplate plans before putting them into action. At times, the Ram's rash behavior will cause you to break out into a cold sweat. Similarly, their blunt remarks can really hurt your feelings. Don't think that you're the only one who has problems with this friendship, though. Aries feels reined in by your cautious behavior. If you really work at it, though, you can draw strength from each other's differences. Let Aries encourage you to assert your ideas more, as your leadership abilities are as strong as theirs. In exchange, you can help the Ram budget their money so they can work less and play more. The two of you may enjoy long-distance running, collecting military memorabilia and tinkering with cars.
  • Indonesian
Bekerja sama dengan Aries dapat sesuatu dari sebuah tantangan untuk Anda, Cancer. Aries bertindak dan berpikir pertama setelah itu, sementara Anda hati-hati merenungkan rencana sebelum menempatkan mereka ke dalam tindakan. Terkadang, perilaku ruam Ram akan menyebabkan Anda untuk keluar menjadi keringat dingin. Demikian pula, komentar tumpul mereka benar-benar dapatmenyakiti perasaan Anda. Jangan berpikir bahwa Anda satu-satunya yangmemiliki masalah dengan persahabatan ini, meskipun. Aries merasa dikekang oleh perilaku hati Anda. Jika Anda benar-benar bekerja dalam hal itu, meskipun, Anda dapat menarik kekuatan dari perbedaan masing-masing. Mari Ariesmendorong Anda untuk menyatakan ide-ide Anda lebih, seperti kemampuan kepemimpinan Anda adalah sebagai kuat sebagai milik mereka. Sebagai gantinya, Anda dapat membantu anggaran Ram uang mereka sehingga mereka dapat bekerja lebih sedikit dan bermain lebih. Anda berdua dapat menikmati lari jarak jauh, mengumpulkan memorabilia militer dan mengutak-atik mobil.

Chika & Andry (Cancer & Virgo)

  • English
Virgo is among your favorite friends. You can depend on this pal to get you exactly the birthday gift you want, right down to the desired color and correct size. Furthermore, this is usually the person you call when you need advice on anything from finding a new hairstyle to starting an exercise regimen. Somehow, this pal knows how to render honest opinions without hurting your feelings. Happily, the Virgin appreciates you just as much as you adore them. This sign has a hard time treating themselves well, feeling they don't deserve creature comforts. That's why they smile so brightly when you bring over a carrot cake, cashmere sweater, or spa gift certificate. Yes, Virgo finds you a wee bit too protective, while you think the Virgin is a little neurotic. For the most part, however, you really enjoy each other's company, especially when bike riding, gardening, or doing needlework together.
  • Indonesian
Virgo adalah antara teman-teman favorit Anda. Anda dapat bergantung padasobat ini untuk Anda persis hadiah ulang tahun yang Anda inginkan, sampai kewarna yang diinginkan dan ukuran yang benar. Selanjutnya, ini biasanya orang yang Anda panggil ketika Anda membutuhkan saran pada apa pun dari menemukan gaya rambut baru untuk memulai latihanEntah bagaimana, temanini tahu bagaimana membuat opini jujur ​​tanpa menyakiti perasaan Anda.Untungnya, Perawan menghargai Anda hanya sebanyak yang Anda memuja mereka. Tanda ini memiliki waktu sulit merawat diri dengan baik, merasa mereka tidak pantas kenyamanan makhlukItu sebabnya mereka tersenyum begitu cerah saat Anda membawa lebih dari kue wortel, sweater kasmir, atau sertifikat spahadiah. Ya, Virgo menemukan Anda sedikit wee terlalu protektif, sementara Anda berpikir Virgin ini sedikit neurotik. Untuk sebagian besar, namun Anda benar-benar menikmati setiap perusahaan lain, terutama ketika bersepeda, berkebun, atau melakukan menjahit bersama.