​Happy 24 months Anniversary ❤

#JUNE2012 : I can't believe it's already been 2 years Girindra & I were dating! I thought it was just yesterday I started to date him. Wow.. Time flies so fast, huh?!

11.06.10 ❤

It the date we started to date ;;)

And 11 has always been my lucky number since we dated! (♥-̮♥)

#2yrsWISH : I hope we can still communicate and understand each other more than before, hope that we never fight, and especially have a longlasting relationship ♡

Now it's been 7 months apart from each other, I start thinking a long-distance relationship is good for the both of us. Even though it's hard, but we get to see the person we love from a different angle.

Astungkara we have an everlasting relationship and hope we are both just well together.

I love you I PT GIRINDRA DIKSITA :*

Happy 23rd Monthsary "GiriChika" ❤

I ❤ today!
Happy 23rd monthsary baby Girindra Diksita :*

#MONTHsarywish : Longlast and everlasting love with I Pt Girindra Diksita, LDR is a sucsess, be a loving couple. 

Thank you for loving me and caring for me.

I love you so much and I hope we can be happy together for the rest of our lives.

Astungkara ~
11.05.12 ❤

Dearest Daddy

Dear Daddy,

It's been 4 months already I've lived with mama and it's been 4 months I haven't seen or spoke to you. Are you doing well? Are you happy I'm not there anymore? You seem not to care for me even though I live with mama. You never ask me how am I? As usual. Are you taking good care of my sister and brother? Are you as busy as always?

*If you are reading this*

Hope you are well. Be healthy and be a good dad to Caithlyn and Ethan. Be there for them if though you're busy. Make some time for your real family. Especially Caithlyn is going to graduate from Junior High next year. So please give her your support as a dad, not like you did to me. And Ethan, he's still little. He still needs love from you. Even though you give them money, they'll still wish you were there for them especially in important times. You still have time daddy to change. It's never too late to learn from your mistakes. That's what you always said to me. So you still have a chance to be a good dad to Caithlyn and Ethan, even though you weren't as great to me.

I've grown up, and starting my future with or without you. I hope I get your blessing through each path and step I make. Even though they're right and wrong. Thank you for taking care of me for the past 19 years of my life. Thank you even though you weren't a great dad to me but I still appreciate you as my dad.

Thank you daddy ~

I love you always and forever ~

Love always your daughter,

Jessica Ekarahayu Astra

My Long-Distance Relationship ❤

November 29, 2011 

I started my LDR with my BF, Indra. Now, it's going to be 3 months being apart from him. I know it's not a big deal to other people, but it's a BIG DEAL to me.

June 11, 2010 - November 29, 2011

Since I met him, we see each other EVERYDAY. He would come to my house at night. When we were still in school, he would pick me up from school (we went to different schools) and we would sit in front of the patio at my house. Months past and we started our Senior Exams (UN), and nothing has changed between us. We always have time to see each other. Even it was after school or in the evening. That time I always came to his house. Until we graduate from high school, we spent our time together from morning through evening. It was sweet though just thinking about it. I've never had a boyfriend like him, so it's kinda of new for me! But, I love him A LOT!!!!! ❤

February 20, 2012

We fought a lot about our relationship. Said bad things that we didn't mean and regret afterwards. The thing I could do at that moment was cry until I fell asleep. In my dreams, I was thinking about my relationship and my purpose. I tried my very best to make everybody happy. From my mom, my siblings, my friends and especially my boyfriend. But I guess everything I did was always wrong. Indra couldn't understand how I felt once he said bad things. I felt so down and upset with him. He was like my dad.

February 21, 2012

Indra apologize for what he said yesterday night in whatsapp. He regreted what he said to me. I accepted his apology not fully trusted him. I tried to put his words what he said to me yesterday aside. I tried to just be normal the way I use to be with him. 

February 22, 2012

I can't sleep so I'm writing at this hour. I've been thinking about LDR with Indra. Is it worth waiting for him or is he just gonna hurt me more. I love him, but he never tries to understand me. All he does is get mad at me. LDR? Is he even ready for a relationship like this? He acts if he is still a little kid. I just don't want to lose him because of all this fighting. I try my best to stay together in this relationship. No matter how hard it is, but I'm willing to try and wait because I love him. #LDR

LOVE

Love is such a strong word. Even a strong feeling! Love can sometimes make us blind. Sometimes it can make us crazy like it's some kind of drug. Sometimes it can also be serious. It can also be hurtful.

Love is wonderful thing in our life. We learn how to love one another, from family, friends, best friends, and even special people in our life.

You don't have to be an expert in Love or what people call now a days is "Love Doctor." Love is a learning experience. You can learn from your mistakes when you love somebody. That's why in love and dating there are steps or process to find the true meaning of love itself.

It's not that I'm an expert in love or anything, but I felt it, the way a person is suppose to love another. From getting to know one another, dating, caring, loving, and now trusting.

I felt hurt and happiness with my boyfriend and we can always get thru our relationship. Even though we're far away now, we always know we love each other and have to trust one another.

Love can just change someone's life. Just like it changed mine. ❤